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☀️ Summer Notes:2026

dad, it's been a minute since we last spoke you + I. this was the first summer w/o you here . and I felt that. at times people tried in vain to suppress such instead of giving themselves permission to feeeeeel. repression is toxicity of the soul. why fight what is? and I believe this absolute fear of vulnerability is what deadens people really. they want to be stronger, tougher, more resilient. like Frodo Baggins with the one ring. but in the end? even Frodo failed. it took a bigger failure, Golum to be the unintentional hero. as if feeling(s) were an inconvenience, an obstacle. which is weird given every emotional retard basks in these Hobby Lobby feel good euphemisms, therapist language, and toxic positivity. now I know what the author of crying in Hmart was rambling on about in her stupid book (a stupid book my cuz kept insisting I read). I say stupid b/c the girl doesn't even look half Korean, sounds like an annoying genZ who somehow turned Hmart into her own personal ...

Seduction Safari: Home Depot

recently, I found myself strutting along in my local Home Depot, wandering about in search of: a lamp for my home office. consider this a master class in chasing ass huhuhhuhu jk, in reality ass chasing me if you want to be technical. relax and chill y'allz so uptight + supa serious. can cut that in half with a butterknife. but I happened to mosey on over to the kitchen area and was warmly greeted (beside the latest in fridges + modern appliances, kitchen windows + such) by a titillating rack of...titties. oh dear, oh my... so after the spell wore off, which wasn't that soon, I looked up to see a sheepishly grinning 🔥 (by Chicago standards, easily a 9 or 10) white chick leering at me like she was quite accustomed with the effect she had. I simply asked her 'hey gorgeous can I see one of these bad boys in action?' and her grin became a Colgate smile real quick, her hair flowing in the wind, and her teeth went *DING!*. she was giving off that 'we must procreate to ...